So much to play and so little time

I was thinking about the new addition to our family and was smiling to myself when I remembered my conversation with my niece, my cousin's adorable daughter the last time I visited their place at my native.

Me: Hey sweetheart, what are you doing?

My niece: I am bored and I want to play!

Me: Alright, that sounds like fun! Let's play!

My niece:  But I can't play!

Me: Why not???

My niece:  I have so many toys, but I don't know what to play with!

Me: Pick your favorite toy and we will play with that!

My niece:  But all of them are my favorite!

Me: Then close your eyes and just pick one toy and we will play.

My niece:   If I close my eyes, then how will I pick something without seeing it? You are not helping me at all and confusing me even more!

Me: *stunned silence*

My niece:   There is so much to play and so little time!

Aaaaaah.....I would do anything to be a little kid again, where the only worry in the world is not being able to decide what to play! :) :) :)

The stinking truth?

Last Friday I reached my office campus early so as to be done with my work equally early in the evening. Normally I use the stairs, but I don't know what got into me, I rushed into the elevator and found myself standing beside 3 other people.

Now, I don't know what am I supposed to make of it. The moment I got into the elevator, all three walked out!!

The only possible reasons I can think of - all three coincidentally forgot to have their breakfast and probably were rushing to the cafeteria or I need to consider a change of my deo brand!!

Let me just assume that it was the former and get on with my life ;-)

Confessions!

I've been fiddling with a lot of ideas for a while now but none of them materialized into blog posts so far.

No, I don't want to write about the always-barking dog from the second floor of our apartment or drone about the miseries at my new work place. Yeah, Facebook went public yesterday though its not making a hell of a difference in my life. And when politics is not exactly your favorite topics, do the mango people really care about anything else? Not sure!

Well, jokes apart, the only word to describe my predicament right now is "stuck". Stuck may be because I am too contended with what I am doing or may be because I don't want to move out of my comfort zone. Unless I crawl out of this comfort zone, there is very little chance to do anything outstanding. This is similar to the way I've been treating this space. I almost always write when I feel good or when there is a steady inflow of thoughts and mostly when it suits me. And I don't push myself or challenge my limits.

I am stuck. All I need is a stinging motivation, a burning ambition that will not let me sleep. That's the only way to crawl out of this rut.

Amma and me :)

Today on Mother's Day, I felt as if I haven't done anything for her all these years. But then it struck me that whatever I do for her, it would be nothing, simply nothing when compared to the love she showers on me each and every moment!

Growing up, I was always my daddy's girl and was scared of my mom. Needless to say, I miss my dad a lot. I am more attached to my mom now. I know she loves me so much (even though I get scolded by her at least 20 times a day) and wants me to be ME despite everything. I want to be so much like her, but deep down I don't think I can be as awesome as she is. She is truly a gem of a person and I am super lucky to have her in my life.

Love you Amma :-)

Love you Amma

What do you really need?

We want so many things in life - a luxurious villa facing the ocean, a fat six figure salary, a perfect chiseled goddess-like figure and what not!! Sometimes we do get what we want and many times we don't.

In real life, you usually get things which you really really want if you try hard. Sometimes we also have these good-to-have wish list which usually comes into limelight and life changes around and makes you achieve those wishes. In fact, I have felt this. Many times, there are certain things that I want only in my head. Say for example the sexy job of a high flying consultant. But the heart wants something entirely different. Say for example to settle down in my happy sleepy hometown somewhere down the line or be able to spend more time with my family. So, while I keep telling myself that I want the former, I subconsciously desire the latter. And, something that I really want with all my heart is what I unknowingly work for! And trust me, it works!!

Every time I keep sending such confusing signals to my brain. So, how do I decide what I really need? Get a doctor? Stick electrodes to my hair and monitor my brain waves? Many people have told me that it need not be so complicated. When in confusion, all you need to do is to list down the things that are good to have and the things that you emotionally desire. Both these things feel so similar yet are so different that you think you want something but you actually want something entirely different!

And then, may be you can train your mind like a white rat in a lab or those monkeys and parrots you see on the road performing. Then you picture yourself going through the emotions when you achieve what you really want. Can you picture yourself happy and content there? If yes, then probably your heart can be tricked to really want what your brain wants!!

Confused?? I know!! Isn't that how we really are?? Confused, needy and pathetic life forms!! :-)