Emotions!

Its been 4 years today!! Indeed time just flies!

With every year that passes, I continue to learn how wise each of my dad's words were! I miss him so much and think of him everyday. Am sure he will still be thinking of me from somewhere up there...

Love you loads Appa. Missing you ever so badly....

What's my destiny?

This question has been haunting me ever since I had this casual chat with a colleague of mine yesterday about childhood dreams, how good we were in everything and how things have changed drastically once we started working.

Remember, when as children, someone would ask us what we wanted to be when we grew up and we'd give answers like "scientist, astronaut, IAS officer etc."? People would admire you but wouldn't take it seriously. Why were these fantasies dismissed as the ramblings of one who did not know what they were talking about? I feel that, as we grow up, we begin to limit ourselves to focusing so much on a rut-filled routine life that we forget that we are not a mere 9-to-5 job, that we still have infinite possibilities around us. In school and college, most of us, including myself, handled academics, extra-curricular activities, sports and then some more with equal panache. Then what is stopping us now from going beyond it? The burden of age? Extra responsibilities? Lack of time? I feel the culprit is our laziness....the thought of postponing everything to the next day...

I stepped outside my comfort zone and explored public speaking, debates etc. whilst in school. Then after college, I took up Engineering and then moved to a very uncertain, volatile profession. Within this, I moved from what I knew I was really really good at to something I took a risk with. There is so much to do yet, and I'm no celebrity. There are people who've done much better and bigger things and they are like beacons of inspiration for me. They show me that if I will it, it will definitely happen. 

I know that all of this might sound pretty fantastic in writing, but the fact is that....it is indeed fantastic! I am told that it's not easy at all, but its not impossible either. So, I think...when has anything easy ever been fun??

I remember dreaming big as a kid. As a child, it wasn't about riches or success.My initial dreams were colorful like most movies - no story to speak of but with lush, open, gigantic spaces which you could drink eyefuls of. I interpret that as the freedom of my mind which is willing to explore. That has been primarily responsible for my exploring new avenues in spite of being settled and really good in what I initially was.

I want to be a woman who never stops dreaming. As they say....you are never too old to dream big and make it happen.